this is what it feels like [CW: illness, body horror illustration]

2024_5_14 Plague Poem

the cardiovascular system drawn onto the fashion coordination bookmark body. over top of it, handwritten in purple ink is the poem. underneath that, upside down, is the additional note.

2024_5_14 Plague Poem


when the news said our blood
was not safe to donate
i exhaled a years held breath
that something wasn’t invisible
that some scientist
(the closest thing I grew up with to a god)
knew our suffering was not imagined

my face was wet as I felt
my queer ancestors hold me



I’ve lived with stigma and actively fought it for decades.

I know its horrors, and I would rather live with more stigma,

than live with the deep-dyed doubt that my illness isn’t real.


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